I could say that I have been really busy. Since I last posted
in March, I have jumped through all the hoops to get into nursing school,
acquired a full-ride scholarship, completed 17 college credits and another nine
credits in the first semester of the program. All, this time I have trained as a
CNA and begun working 30-40 hours every weekend (Friday –Saturday) so that I
could go to school full-time during the week. I also have four kids that need a
certain amount of monitoring and intervention.
I also could say that I lost interest. Looking at blogs,
most seem like pretty lame versions of Whitman’s barbaric yawp. Go back inside,
I could say to most bloggers. No one wants to hear it. You’re boring. I had to include
myself in that crowd of uninspiring bloggers. Really, who cares what supposedly
sublime thoughts I may have about the latest Pope or a movie that I watched?
I have been a little more than depressed as well. I have
been going through a divorce, against my will, which was finalized in June.
Stubborn as I am, I refused to give up and am still in the process of mending
fences with my now ex-wife. It is a day-to-day struggle which saps my strength
and devastates my ego.
Furthermore, I had been living as a full-time content writer
for a couple years, up until I began working a as CNA in August. The work was
nerve-wracking because I had to write 5,000 words minimum every day just to get
by. In addition, I rarely knew when I would have work and could not find enough
time to do so. In short, I was a nervous wreck.
Work Relief
Finding full-time work as a CNA was an incredible relief.
The work is very hard and there are regular periods of high-pressure. Nevertheless,
it was pure joy to know that I had work every week. I also liked committing to
12 and 16-hour shifts and being simply absorbed by the job for virtually an
entire day. There were no more questions about whether I would have work or not.
And it was pleasant to see how my work was helping people. That was not
something that I could feel while writing Internet content.
This may be the final post or it may be the first in a
renewed series.
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